“You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in you. Trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord, the Lord himself, is the Rock eternal.”
Isaiah 26:3-4
Flying was my least favorite way to travel. I would rather drive two days to Texas than take a simple four-hour flight. This time we were literally traveling across the country, California to New Jersey. Two of my boys were going to compete and, unlike me, they were excited.
Driving to the airport my heart began to pound. I wanted to cry and I began concoct reasons for turning back and cancelling the trip. I prayed, “Lord, please take this fear from me.” I had prayed that same prayer for every flight I had ever been on before. Yet, I still had the same desperate fear that filled every part of me.
We landed in New Jersey and made it to the hotel. The boys, unscathed from the trip, sat down to watch Television. I was still on internal panic mode, so I plopped on the bed and started to pray, “Lord, why won’t you take this fear from me? I keep asking and it’s still there.” He answered, “because you don’t fully trust me.” It was a moment of self-revelation…” you’re right” I responded, “I don’t fully trust you.” That was the last time I stepped on a plane feeling fear. It was not the last time fear arose, but it was the last time I allowed it to override my trust in God. “Whatever you have for me, Lord.” became my battle cry. When your up against something difficult, remember that feelings may arise over situations but we do not have to be held captive to them. We have a choice to turn inward or turn upward to Him.
Prayer: Lord, help me to remember that you are with me in everything. Let my plans be aligned with your plans and help me to rest in the trust that you will always be there with me.